second best sucks fucking balls. i hate you so much right now. how could you just use me like you did. i knew it would happen, why do i fall for it every fucking time. it meant a lot to me but it was fuck all to you. i’m just your wee doll, you don’t even care about me and it fucking sucks. you don’t realise how much i want to cry right now. i want you to text me but then the cheek of you if you did without explaining why you’ve just walked away. i need to get this all out and i’m not going to be the first to talk, so this will have to do. i hope karma comes round and hits you so fucking hard, because you have done so much to ruin my life. i hope she is fucking worth it.

i just want to cry so much and punch you in the fucking face. you think it’s right for you to talk to me like you do, you’re such a fucking dick. i really fucking hate you right now and i don’t even want to see you. you have changed so much because you think everyone loves you. they fucking don’t, the sooner you realise this, the better.

i want to die right now.

one day when you want me back i won’t be there. i won’t reply, i won’t care. i might have someone else that’s taken your place, i might just be over you. either way, you’re going to wish you tried harder and appreciated me more, maybe that day you will learn to take care of people that mean something to you.

i told you i’m changing. that means i won’t be falling for your petty little lies and chat up lines any more. i won’t let you treat me like shit and kick me down then act all innocent. i’m not being the pushover any more. the sooner you realise this, the more you will wish you never fucked up.

he spoke to me today. i wanted to keep talking to him. i wanted to laugh with him and tell him everything that was going on around me. but i made a promise. so i gave him the help he needed and then left him. i have hurt too many people by picking him over them. i wasn’t doing it again. because really, i meant nothing to him. and those texts meant nothing to him. but so much to me. i’m just another girl on his list. another one he manipulates then pushes away. i need to stop going in circles and move on with my life. 

i don’t miss him. i miss what we had.

you have ruined my life. i hope karma comes round and hits you, hard.

omfg what are you doing hahahaha, ‘football, music, girls’ YES BECAUSE YOU ARE A FUCKING PLAYER AND A WANK STAIN. you’re lucky I’m the only person that even goes on your twitter, that’s if your lucky, so you’re not embarrassing yourself that much. but still.. HAHAHAHA OMG YOU DICKED

don’t fucking moan about me bottling up when you’re being a dickhead and a bullshitter. I can’t trust you, I don’t want to trust you and I will never trust you. So don’t you fucking complain about me bottling up when it’s all your fault that I bottle up in the first place. Ever since I met you you have brought my confidence down and turned me into a depressed fucking shit and just ruined my life and my happiness. Karma will hit you so fucking hard, and when it does I am going to just laugh, because you deserve all the fucking shit you get and are going to get. You deserve no sympathy from me or anyone else what so ever. You’re just a little player who thinks you can get anyone you want at the click of your fingers but no. Everyone hates you and everyone just uses you because that’s what you deserve. So get your fucking head out your shitty little arse and see some fucking sense in life. If you don’t change your attitude/personality then you’re fucked.

I’m in such a fucking shit mood. fucking dickhead treating me like shit again. sister being a bitch.